Stormweaver
12-07-2009, 10:48 AM
Hey gang,
I've reached a point where I need to talk about a couple of things and get some feedback as I've hit something of a wall with myself, concerning my interests in "lifestyle" activities.
If you have read my intro or any of my profile stuff, you may have picked up on the fact that I have been dealing with a very big "who am I" for quite some time now. I was hoping that some of this would calm with the freedom of moving someplace new and away from everyone I know, but there are things in my life here at home that keep me from really working out the answers. So I am coming to you the community at large to gather input and feedback.
1. When you come across an interest or desire that is intense enough that it creeps into your mind or things that you do several times a day, is that dangerous?
2. If you have a desire or interest that is unmeetable, how do you get past it? I've tried just reading on material on it, even played around with idea Role Playing wise and in Second Life as chances to get closer, yet all it does is seem to feed the need for it to truly be apart of my life. Its not something I can have, so how do I get around it?
3. At what point does one need to seriously consider that deviant desires and needs are causing enough issues that one should call for help?
4. How does one tell a true interest from "something new and undone"? I swear it seems like every time I come across something new, that within a few hours of learning about it, it processes into a "never want, might do, or have to do" and there seem to be more "have to do" then anything else.. is this a sign of warning, or just adventurousness?
I know these are vague, I'm not super comfortable to get much more specific over such a broad communication point.. I'm still coming to grips with the chaos that is all these feelings and emotions and desires rolling around in my brain unhinged. Seems like one day I want to look for a sub, the next a Domme, the day after whomever only knows... And mornings like today, I wake up feeling adrift in a storm surged sea of all this chaos and spend most of my day focusing as much on not freaking out as I do on trying to get anything done... So this is the closest I can deal with a call for help...
Can anyone offer some thoughts or feelings?
Tempest
I've reached a point where I need to talk about a couple of things and get some feedback as I've hit something of a wall with myself, concerning my interests in "lifestyle" activities.
If you have read my intro or any of my profile stuff, you may have picked up on the fact that I have been dealing with a very big "who am I" for quite some time now. I was hoping that some of this would calm with the freedom of moving someplace new and away from everyone I know, but there are things in my life here at home that keep me from really working out the answers. So I am coming to you the community at large to gather input and feedback.
1. When you come across an interest or desire that is intense enough that it creeps into your mind or things that you do several times a day, is that dangerous?
2. If you have a desire or interest that is unmeetable, how do you get past it? I've tried just reading on material on it, even played around with idea Role Playing wise and in Second Life as chances to get closer, yet all it does is seem to feed the need for it to truly be apart of my life. Its not something I can have, so how do I get around it?
3. At what point does one need to seriously consider that deviant desires and needs are causing enough issues that one should call for help?
4. How does one tell a true interest from "something new and undone"? I swear it seems like every time I come across something new, that within a few hours of learning about it, it processes into a "never want, might do, or have to do" and there seem to be more "have to do" then anything else.. is this a sign of warning, or just adventurousness?
I know these are vague, I'm not super comfortable to get much more specific over such a broad communication point.. I'm still coming to grips with the chaos that is all these feelings and emotions and desires rolling around in my brain unhinged. Seems like one day I want to look for a sub, the next a Domme, the day after whomever only knows... And mornings like today, I wake up feeling adrift in a storm surged sea of all this chaos and spend most of my day focusing as much on not freaking out as I do on trying to get anything done... So this is the closest I can deal with a call for help...
Can anyone offer some thoughts or feelings?
Tempest