CDpaula
12-28-2007, 03:18 AM
Hello Everyone
Please excuse the length of this “intro”. i'll try and keep it as brief as possible while still giving a fairly good representation of myself here...
Since i’ve been a member of this forum for 2 weeks now i suppose i should formally introduce myself least i run the risk of being thought of as a "lurker". :) my name is Paula and i’ve lived in the NE Metro area for 15 years now. i moved here from southwest Florida in 1992 and before that lived in the Pittsburgh, Pa. area where i was born and grew up. i’m nearing the dreaded “50th” birthday now (a little over a year to go) so i’m no longer what you’d call a “spring chicken”. :o
Obliviously since i'm introducing myself in this forum i’m a cross dresser. Equally oblivious i would imagine, given the theme of these forums, is that i’m also a submissive (since i’m using the small “i” rather than the traditional capitol “I” when referring to myself). Probably not as oblivious though is the fact that i’m also bisexual.
i first began cross dressing at 18 but didn’t put all the elements, such as make-up, nails, wig, heels, etc., together until nearly 5 or 6 years later. It was almost another 20 years before i actually got up enough courage to venture out for more than just a late night drive around the suburbs. my discovery that i was a submissive occurred around the same time as my discovery that i was a cross dresser but it wasn’t until my mid-twenties that i realized i was also bisexual. i have been “dressing”, a “submissive” and bisexual for something like 25 years now. For quite a few years i viewed the fact that i was a bisexual, submissive and a cross dresser as a triple “wammy”. Its only been in the last 6 or 7 years that i’ve become able to accepted myself for who and what i am (i did 7 major “purges” over the years and tons of self denial prior to my self acceptance).
i’ve been married to the kindest, most understanding and accepting woman anyone could ever hope to meet for 7 years now (after 2 prior marriages ended in divorce). my wife knows EVERYTING about me and has since less than a year after we meet. She even helped me back when i was first starting to venture out “dressed” in everything from clothing selections to make-up. She even accompanied me the first couple of times i went out “dressed”. She also tried for a time to help satisfy my submissive needs, but once it became obvious she wasn’t a Dom, or had any interest in Dominating, not wanting her to feel “forced” into engaging in something she wasn’t interested in, we discussed it and came to another arrangement. We decided after a time to stopped our attempts at BDSM play and per her suggestion i should seek to satisfying my submissive needs outside of our marriage. She doesn’t have any problems with this arrangement as long as i make her aware of my intentions to do so prior to any actual involvement and that i‘m not out subbing 5 or 6 nights a week. The same goes for my occasional bisexual needs.
i do intend to venture down to 1763 one of these Friday or Saturday evenings but i work a 4 on 4 off schedule (when i’m lucky enough to actually get all 4 nights off which isn’t all that often it seems), which means i don’t always have a Friday or Saturday night off. If there’s an event that i’m eligible to attend on either the 11th/12th or 18th/19th of January i plan to get myself down to 1763 then. If not i’ll have to wait for the next opportunity.
Thank you all for your patience with the length of this and the opportunity to become a member of these forums and i look forward to meeting everyone soon.
i hope everyone shares in peace and happiness this coming new year!
Paula ;)
Please excuse the length of this “intro”. i'll try and keep it as brief as possible while still giving a fairly good representation of myself here...
Since i’ve been a member of this forum for 2 weeks now i suppose i should formally introduce myself least i run the risk of being thought of as a "lurker". :) my name is Paula and i’ve lived in the NE Metro area for 15 years now. i moved here from southwest Florida in 1992 and before that lived in the Pittsburgh, Pa. area where i was born and grew up. i’m nearing the dreaded “50th” birthday now (a little over a year to go) so i’m no longer what you’d call a “spring chicken”. :o
Obliviously since i'm introducing myself in this forum i’m a cross dresser. Equally oblivious i would imagine, given the theme of these forums, is that i’m also a submissive (since i’m using the small “i” rather than the traditional capitol “I” when referring to myself). Probably not as oblivious though is the fact that i’m also bisexual.
i first began cross dressing at 18 but didn’t put all the elements, such as make-up, nails, wig, heels, etc., together until nearly 5 or 6 years later. It was almost another 20 years before i actually got up enough courage to venture out for more than just a late night drive around the suburbs. my discovery that i was a submissive occurred around the same time as my discovery that i was a cross dresser but it wasn’t until my mid-twenties that i realized i was also bisexual. i have been “dressing”, a “submissive” and bisexual for something like 25 years now. For quite a few years i viewed the fact that i was a bisexual, submissive and a cross dresser as a triple “wammy”. Its only been in the last 6 or 7 years that i’ve become able to accepted myself for who and what i am (i did 7 major “purges” over the years and tons of self denial prior to my self acceptance).
i’ve been married to the kindest, most understanding and accepting woman anyone could ever hope to meet for 7 years now (after 2 prior marriages ended in divorce). my wife knows EVERYTING about me and has since less than a year after we meet. She even helped me back when i was first starting to venture out “dressed” in everything from clothing selections to make-up. She even accompanied me the first couple of times i went out “dressed”. She also tried for a time to help satisfy my submissive needs, but once it became obvious she wasn’t a Dom, or had any interest in Dominating, not wanting her to feel “forced” into engaging in something she wasn’t interested in, we discussed it and came to another arrangement. We decided after a time to stopped our attempts at BDSM play and per her suggestion i should seek to satisfying my submissive needs outside of our marriage. She doesn’t have any problems with this arrangement as long as i make her aware of my intentions to do so prior to any actual involvement and that i‘m not out subbing 5 or 6 nights a week. The same goes for my occasional bisexual needs.
i do intend to venture down to 1763 one of these Friday or Saturday evenings but i work a 4 on 4 off schedule (when i’m lucky enough to actually get all 4 nights off which isn’t all that often it seems), which means i don’t always have a Friday or Saturday night off. If there’s an event that i’m eligible to attend on either the 11th/12th or 18th/19th of January i plan to get myself down to 1763 then. If not i’ll have to wait for the next opportunity.
Thank you all for your patience with the length of this and the opportunity to become a member of these forums and i look forward to meeting everyone soon.
i hope everyone shares in peace and happiness this coming new year!
Paula ;)